I believe in me.

I'm losin' myself
Tryin' to compete
With everyone else
Instead of just bein' me

I don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways
Instead of always being weak

I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
You see, I just wanna believe in me

The mirror can lie
Doesn't show you what's inside
And it, it can tell you you're full of life
It's amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile

I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
You see, I just wanna believe in me

I'm quickly finding out
I'm not about to break down
Not today

I guess I always knew
That I had all the strength
To make it through

Not gonna be afraid
I'm gonna wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay
'Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
You see, now, now I believe in me

Now I believe in me


Goodness gracious Demi is one talented girl thats for sure. I love that song and when I listened to it today something hit me...

So I have decided I definatly want to get my certificate/degree/whatever in Recording Arts. How I'm gonna pay for technical school is another issue but we will reach that when we get there. I will just apply for scholarships and loans. I want it and I'm gonna get it. I believe in myself. It's something I have ALWAYS been interested in so why not right? I really believe that thats what I'm supposed to be doing. If that changes then God will let me know. Or if I'm not listening correctly. I sure hope I am tho =P I also know I want to do another College Program. I am going to go in with a goal tho. I would just extend but I have obligations to my best friend and her wedding as the Maid of Honor so I will be going home this spring. I will work a shitload..sorry for that word but I don't think "alot" covers it. If I have to I will find 2 jobs. I have stuff to pay for and debts to my family so I wanna get that covered. I want to start at Media Tech too if that works out. Or another tech school. I want to apply to be in the college program again. Merchandising is going at the bottom of my list tho. I want something new. All I have done is Merch. Every job I have ever done. I want a NEW adventure. I'm thinking charactor attendant. That way I will be in with the Entertainment department. I want to meet someone in the Shows technical department. I might even do that before I leave this program..but I think I want to come back to disney and experience this one more time. WHO KNOW'S....Things are always changing. I am so excited to be home tho. I just realized how jumbled and random this is. Get over it =P Love you all...anywho. I got a 3 page letter from Rosi today. I was so excited. I wanna thank Amy and Rosi for being awesome and sending me letters. I love mail! I know technology is here and there really is no need to spend money on stamps and take the time to write letters but it's fun! So yea thats why I have been sending out so many letters and stuff! Um...Woah..Be Yourself by Audioslave just came on...hehehe yay.

Um I'm going to get ready for work now.

Sunday I'm going to Magic Kingdom and to see Katelyn Tarvers show at The Backbooth
Monday I'm going to Universal Studios!

Yippee Skippee

ok NOW I'm going to get ready for work...maybe.